Monday, February 21, 2011

Sailing - tough lover

I like to sail - and after a day spent in no wind and rain struggling to move forward in heavy current, I wondered what it was that I liked in sailing. I realized that I may like different things and different types of sailing.

The Community
First, there is a community and a camaraderie that exist around any sailing communities. Of course, there are always the odd characters, however, for the most parts, sailors are helpful, generous and committed to their sports. I experience this every time I go out on Elise with the team. I experienced it throughout my sailing career. I remember that once Elise was at Richmond Yacht Club with her mast down and I had gotten an email from other fleet members who had seen her and offered their help in stepping the mast and tuning her so she could be ready for the next race. I experienced it when prepping the boat for Pac Cup - without the help from friends, the boat would not have made it to the start line. I experienced it when putting together the Sarcoma Cup. It is one of these events where yacht clubs are now collaborating to success and a great cause. I experienced it just yesterday when Brian kindly accepted to have David on board for the race - and I will experience it in a couple of weeks as friends of mine and Express 27 sailors are getting together to take Meebs (members from my team at Meebo) out on a sailing offsite.

Some of my friends have purchased their own boats and I can't wait to be lending them my help. I also want to continue to help on race committee so that other sailors can enjoy the thrills of sailboat racing. I will be trained as a Principal Race Officer in May.

Sailors can be rough, they like beer, they are not exactly super elegant in foul weather gear or with bits of engine grease and fiberglass on their hands - however I am very fond of them.

The Discovery and the Beauty
I like to sail because I like to travel. Spend a night and a day out in the Ocean and you will experience true beauty. Sail around the rugged coast of the Farallon Island and you will dream of Robinson Crusoe, sail back at night under the Golden Gate Bridge and experience grandeur. Anchor in Drakes Bay and experience peaceful beauty. Sail around the Seychelles and find yourself in paradise. Sailing in a journey. The sea will look very different under any kind of conditions - it can be still, it can be moving. it can be cold, it can be warm. Blue, grey, green, turquoise - never empty. Always smelly. It never is just the sea - it is the sea, the current, the wave, the wind, the fish, the mammal, the coast, the spray - it is an entire world that you are exploring. A harsh and precious reality. How else could I experience the billions of stars, a warm rounded yellow moon and immense quietness of the open ocean?

The physicality
I particularly like to sail on small boats as I feel the sea and the wind directly translated into an immediate boat response. They are harder to steer and harder to sail as they require more attention - they are also more physically demanding, and they will pump up a lot of energy, just to keep your balance. I find them more fun though - it is a constant dance, a constant negotiation between the elements and you - and the boat is your mediator.

The Human Condition
Whenever you go out, you come back thankful. Whenever you sail, you live, you feel deeply human. Sailing needn't be dangerous with adequate preparation and well-maintained equipment, and a touch of good planning. It is a lot less dangerous than driving a car. Still, because you feel so exposed - and so much like a visitor in someone else's world, you come back grateful for a few other days of life. Grateful to be alive, not necessarily happy to have survived but happy to have lived. Sailing is not comfortable, particularly racing. You are usually cold, wet, tired, hungry. You eat badly cooked food, your body is thrashed by the elements, whipped by the wind, cursed by spray, burned by the sun, eaten by the salt. After a Pacific Cup, and sometimes even after a Coastal Cup, your hands are full of open sores and your butt hurts A LOT. Fiber glass is a cold and hard surface and rubbing against it when it is covered with a thin salty film tend to make for a very uncomfortable trip. Sailing can also be very pleasant - a warm cup of tea in your hands when you watch the sunset in the open ocean, a cold beverage when you relaxed on deck on a warm sunny day, or dry out after a nice bath and you can't imagine a better vacation.
Sailing is full of joys and disappointments. You win, you lose. You meet friends, your experience bitterness. You break things, you fix things up. You sink and you re-build. You keep going.
These small annoyances, the discomfort and the joys of sailing draw the most human part of me out. I have written in the past that I feel free out in the ocean. I now believe that it is only partly true. I can't escape my human conditions. I feel anchored by it. I feel grand, and humbled. Sailing does not transcend it and does not lift me beyond my human limitations. It makes me more aware and appreciative of them. There is an element of freedom, because of the fact that you need not be constrained by any set route, and you are the writer of your own destiny - you can only operate in a narrow margin of safety and within the conditions set by the sea.

So as long as I am able, I will keep sailing, and keep crossing oceans...

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